This is not the first time I’ve discussed my finances so openly. I mean c’mon, do you even know me? I guess not. This is why I love the anonymity. 
Yet again, I found myself in this bottomless pit of financial rut. I worry about it every single day and just the other day I found strands of shiny white hair. There are times when I am close to declaring myself bankrupt, not that I have alot of assets. Come to think of it, my assets are more than enough although it’s just sitting there not producing any monetary income. Bad, bad, bad.
As of right now, I only have a couple of hundred in the bank. Not enough to even cover two insurance policies. Sigh. E.v.e.r.y single time I try not to spend too much, all of a sudden the money dissapears. I’m just not good with money, period.
I’m guessing my financial rut began right after I had this additional asset. I knew I shouldn’t have gone into it but I did, so no use regretting it now.
It’s a well lesson learned. I can hear everyone saying, ‘You should have saved from the beginning.’ I know I should’ve and in a way I did but with my thrift spending, hardly is saved in the end.
Again, no use regretting. It’s over and done with. I’ll just have to live with what I have until I’m financially stable again, which means no more shopping for unecessary things or unhealthy food and no more boozing. I reckon if I start now, I’ll be slim again in no time. 
Fat, plump, slim, skinny, voluptuous – who cares? You think I’m fat, think again? You think I’m slim, think again. Aha, yes I’m constantly loving it when I do the mindfuck. It is equally as orgasmic as the real thing, innit? True to herself, the Venus always manages to get out of the iffiness in her head, despite all the worry. Now she will continue off with her day.
