Getting Back On Track

Life in dollars and cents has been on the positive side however I must learn to be extra frugal with my spendings. Over the course of 12 months I’ve been struggling a lot with it and now I hope it’ll only get better. There are a few items on my wish list and I am eager to at least get one of it as I have been hard (even though my boss doesn’t quite think so).

I deal with a lot of crap and the unnecessary in the office and my boss doesn’t seem to understand that there are a lot of petty jobs I needn’t do. I have given myself an amount of time to clear my shit and what not before I head on to another phase of my life, hence why I need the money!

Whatever it is, I am not letting anything stand in my way of wanting to move on in life. I don’t see any future in my life here (for now or the next five to ten years) and I really need to find myself and explore the world.

Grass is always greener on the other side they say.

We’ll see.

No this is not an April Fool’s day joke.

Doughy Rut

This is not the first time I’ve discussed my finances so openly. I mean c’mon, do you even know me? I guess not. This is why I love the anonymity.

Yet again, I found myself in this bottomless pit of financial rut. I worry about it every single day and just the other day I found strands of shiny white hair. There are times when I am close to declaring myself bankrupt, not that I have alot of assets. Come to think of it, my assets are more than enough although it’s just sitting there not producing any monetary income. Bad, bad, bad.

As of right now, I only have a couple of hundred in the bank. Not enough to even cover two insurance policies. Sigh. E.v.e.r.y single time I try not to spend too much, all of a sudden the money dissapears. I’m just not good with money, period.

I’m guessing my financial rut began right after I had this additional asset. I knew I shouldn’t have gone into it but I did, so no use regretting it now.

It’s a well lesson learned. I can hear everyone saying, ‘You should have saved from the beginning.’ I know I should’ve and in a way I did but with my thrift spending, hardly is saved in the end.

Again, no use regretting. It’s over and done with. I’ll just have to live with what I have until I’m financially stable again, which means no more shopping for unecessary things or unhealthy food and no more boozing. I reckon if I start now, I’ll be slim again in no time.

Fat, plump, slim, skinny, voluptuous – who cares? You think I’m fat, think again? You think I’m slim, think again. Aha, yes I’m constantly loving it when I do the mindfuck. It is equally as orgasmic as the real thing, innit? True to herself, the Venus always manages to get out of the iffiness in her head, despite all the worry. Now she will continue off with her day.

Frugal With Finances

I am officially broke today. I have exactly $4.94 in my coin purse. Even with that the $2 coin is completely useless. I’ve completely max-ed out my credit card so no use there. MA has borrowed me a few hundred bucks since two weeks ago but it since has all gone, due to my accessive drinking, smoking and eating. What do you expect when you got a girl who’s entertaining 24-7?

If I wanted to do the things I’ve been dreaming off I really gotta start saving. It’s not that I don’t but considering that I’m the kind of person who spends more than what I earn isn’t exactly a good thing. I can’t even begin to comprehend why I bought something so huge and expensive when I know so well I can’t quite afford it. But what’s done is done, I can’t turn back the clock, so from now on everything will go to my savings if not to settle my debts. Debts as in the ones from the bank you motherfucker.

As desparate for cash as I may be, I’m not stupid unlike some people who’d so willingly turn to loan sharks. Honestly, that’s being extremely selfish and simply have no clue the shit (s)he’s putting the family (pun intended). Fucking hell, I’ve heard that even a distant relative of ours got himself into that shit. He apparently has dissapear to the other side of the country. Now that’s bad.

I’ve got another night out tonight and considered having glasses cold water all night. I mean water’s good for you, right? Maybe with a slice or two of lemon, just for show. The consequences I have to bear for not being frugal enough with my money. Shit.

Basically, the word of the day is frugal. OMG, now I sound like Ariella Papa. No, you wouldn’t know who Ariella Papa is. She a non-famous author of Up & Out. Some chic lit I’ve been reading lately. Very unlike me to read chic lit nowadays. But I needed the humour and light reading.

Now sidetracking towards another topic is very unlike me, or is it? Anyways, like I said I’m broke. If anyone feel sympathetic enough to donate me some money, you’ll be very much appreciated. In fact, I’d very VERY grateful to your sincere kindness. But of course, with no other intentions. Okay, maybe I’ll be your slave driver for a month. I was kidding…again. I won’t be your slave driver but I’ll cook and eat with ya? Oh fuck. Forget it. I’m just babbling nonsense.