I met up with a dear relative recently, whom I’ve not seen in a few months. She invited me out for drinks one night and since it’s been awhile since we talked, there was loads to tell. Once everything was laid out, I found out that she’s in pretty much in the same boat as me when it comes to the ‘love life’.
It’s a breath of fresh air knowing someone who knows exactly how you feel and what you’re going through. After four hours of mindless babbles about the guy we’re seeing, it was crystal clear that we could really do better. This didn’t end there, two nights later we’re at it again with nonstop chimneys and caipirinhas. It was one hell of a session.
We promised each other that we’d keep ourselves update and to encourage and remind each other that we weren’t LOSERS.
Two nights ago, I saw him again with a bunch of friends since I was away for a week. A friend told me that he was bringing a girl with him. It didn’t bother me at first but the moment they arrived, I felt my heart skip the beat. I was certain that I had a million butterflies in my stomach. He never looked so good. I was trying hard all evening to avoid gazing at his handsome face. Now doesn’t that sound like a LOSER to you?
Thank God about an hour later another friend came by and he was one EYE CANDY! That took me off my concentration on him for awhile.
Whatever it is, I’m telling myself to get over it and move on. Somehow every now and I have no choice but to see him because we have the same friends and it would be impossible to completely avoid him. There are times when I would love to ignore him but he’d always try to make conversations.
It’s been hard and I know it’s going to get harder. I need a new eye candy to keep me distracted.
